life right now

July 21, 2015

So it’s been awhile since I made a personal blog post where I could just kind of open up about my life and how things are going.
Besides using the word, “busy,” to describe life as of right now I would have to say it’s also really, really good.

This time of year is my favorite time of year to travel. It’s just between the break of wedding season (right before it starts up again) and it’s also the time of year where my brain is so fried from doing 5 shoots + 1-3 weddings every week that I’m itching to only do creative shoots.
Today my stylist and I had a 3 hour meeting about what we are going to accomplish in California. There’s so many exciting things planned like working with Lacey Rogers (ANTM contestant), Charity Vance (singer), and Leslie Durso (vegan chef), and I am on the edge of my seat I cannot wait.

This year I’ve pushed myself harder than I ever thought I could (or should) and I’m so happy that I have. I have plans that are bigger than I am right now, and while everything is under wraps, it’s all falling into place and I’m anxious to share it with you all.

Something I wanted to get a lot better at recently was picking who I want to be close to me. Ryan told me not too long ago, “You’re really bad at picking friends,” and I had to think about it and say, “Yeah.. I guess I am.”  I’ve lost a few friends over the years and it’s just because I’ve realized that they were the opposite of what I’m drawn to. I really like happy, upbeat, independent, and positive people to be around. People that always have something good to say and don’t have the reputation that makes you question who they were before you met them. I’ve had plenty of situations where someone would make me angry and then we not speak anymore and now when I think back on those situations, I just laugh. I laugh because…oh my god..nothing is THAT big of deal. It’s like people get so mad at someone these days and then boom, you never speak again. One time. That’s it. There’s no working it out, there’s no positive amends, there’s nothing except grudges, hurtful words, and the silent treatment.
And I don’t know, I’m just not like that. And I guess that’s why I’m so bad at picking most of my friends.
Ryan has taught me so much about “being the bigger person” and I’ve really appreciated him in doing this. And he doesn’t even realize this, but he’s really encouraged me to want to make new friends.. and I have. People that fit the description of the type of person I love to be around all the time (hi ava and claire)! And it’s inspired me in so many ways to just let go of what you think bothers you because it seriously doesn’t matter. I’d rather be happy and move on than not and that’s why I’m so glad I found a way to do that.
So for any of you that are mad at someone, just….let it go. Seriously. Maybe don’t hang out with them, but learn to let it go.

This will be my last blog post until I leave for Australia with Ryan on Monday. Prepare for awesome videos, photos, and descriptions of everything we did!

Minolta 35mm film